Naked Truths

Having an extra day tomorrow to do my planning means that I'm a little lazier today than I normally am on Sundays. A typical Sunday afternoon has me chained to the computer inputing grades, or doing lesson plans or researching for school. This afternoon, I'm channel-surfing. I came across How to Look Good Naked on Lifetime.

What a lovely concept.

Host Carson Kressley addresses the statistic that 4 out of 5 women hate their bodies. Every week, he works with a woman who has typical body issues: breasts too large/small, big butt, heavy thighs, cellulite. While I'm fairly certain I would not feel comfortable showcasing my underwear clad body for all the world to see, even with Carson cheering me on, I think it's fantastic that there's a show out there that celebrates us for who we are, even if we don't look like a Vogue model.

Kev and I have friends, another couple, that we've known for several years. Recently, in looking at pictures, Kevin commented that both individuals had gained weight. So, honestly, have I. Enough that I'm uncomfortable with it. At the same time, while I've noticed that these friends have also gained weight, I'm not at all uncomfortable with their body changes. I think they look great. So why is it that I think she looks cute and sexy, and I look...blah?

I am by no stretch of the imagination "old". I will be 26 about 2 months. In my head, I think that I still expect to look like I did at 18. Even while I know that this is physically impossible, I still have not yet come to terms with my "now" look. I feel like my body looks...maternal. Closer to 30 than to 20. This is something I just can't get my mind wrapped around.